Life in my eyes.

Okay, today i want to start my blog from “Swimming”. Errm, although it is quite random, but i guess it is a fresh topic to talk about. At first, I think it is easy to swim across a big pool. But actually, it is hard if you are not ready. When you are in the pool, you have to loose all of your body and mind. You can’t even move if your body isn’t compromised well. To make a good and swift movement, you have to concentrate to a point and make it into a gentle movement. You may not waste your energy for any useless gesture, because it will ruin your movement. At that time,you can’t even breath. Things you have to do are, slow down, calm down, do not hear, and do not think, move as gently as a flying fur. You don’t need to care who is monitoring you and what condition you are in. Talking so much about swimming,do you know what is my point? Actually, i think that swimming is the same as living this life. Life is easy when i’m happy. But,it will be tough when i’m in a trouble. Lately, I realize,as long as you are in this world, you have to live,live spectacularly! It’s like swimming in the pool, I have to loose all of my body and mind and then concentrate to things i want to do and what i want to be. I shouldn’t let anything disturb my serenity. I have to slow down and calm down. I don’t want to hear and think anything. if there is anyone who did bad things to you, just thank him/her that he/she has made you realize that there are still a lot of amazing things you can do in this world. So, i want to thank somebody that has made me realize, see, and know new things. Without that somebody i couldn’t enjoy my life and couldn’t be strong like I am now, i couldn’t recognize great friends, and i couldn’t know the real man behind the mask. That’s why i would never forget that somebody for my whole life. Beside all of those, I also want to share about my day with SEALNet. We have finally finished our workshop successfully. YEAY! I believed that we can do anything that we want to do whole-heartedly. And now, it is proved that every efforts that we have made, has turned into a good ending. But I feel so sad that eveything will end in no time. Everyone is leaving me soon. Can we meet and gather again someday?? I believe we will. Hope SEALNet Medan chapter will last long. Within this episode of SEALNet, I got some new experiences and lessons. One of them is that: between a good and a bad thing, there’ll just be a little distinction. Also, there are always things that will happen out of the blue. I’ll share some story about SEALNet outreaches. We went to an orphanage. It was Panti Asuhan Pelita Kasih and located in jalan pantai timur, about medan-binjai km 8.5. We got to know that orphanage from local BAPEDA,it stands for Badan Pembangunan Daerah, which is an organisation formed by the government to plan the development for the city. When we observed the place, we were so paralyzed. And a big question popped out “Is this a home????”. Its condition is so bad there. While not far away, we could see a lot of big houses. It isn’t something that you could imagine. The orphanage is a house made of woods. There are some holes in the wall. If it rains, the water will leak into the house. There are 3 rooms – Males’, Females’ and Bapak Panti’s (it is a nickname for the one who is taking responsible of the orphanage). They don’t have any clean water to use. They have to use the well at the back of the house. When they want to take a bath, they have to wait for the water to be purified in the water purifier. The water purifier is made of a big container that contains sands and stones in it to eliminate the dirt from the water. And for drinking water,they have to go to the city to buy some. Do you know what do they use to cook? They don’t use stove. They use woods and stones to make fire. And the food is only rice and 2 pieces of salted fish.When we asked the children about how many time do they usually brush their teeth, they answered us: “We have no more” (maybe they meant that they have no more toothpastes and toothbrushes). So pitiful, aren’t they? When we were about to go home in outreach 1, we, some of the mentors were having their chit chat with bapak panti. Bapak panti told us a little about his life. Then we asked “do the government take care of the children or help the children?” bapak panti replied with smile “ya. Ya. Last month. But for this month, we haven’t got any help from government.” Then we asked again “how much money does the government usually give?” he stopped to think for a while and answered “it is about 1.250 rupiah a day for a child.” We were surprised by the sum, it is not even enough for a pack of standard nasi campur. He continued “yah. Maybe it is not enough but there are some kind people who give us money,rice,and supplies for the kids. Maybe we can only depend on that. ”

Talking about the children, i think they are pity. Although they are lack of education and affections, they have big dreams. When i saw the list of their biodata, I discovered that some of the children are siblings. How can their parents send and leave them there? They are so inhuman. Even an animal like a lion has never left their cubs. The children there cannot be called as orphans because they still have their parents and they know their parents. They think the orphanages as a place like dormitory. I think it is better for the parent not to give birth to them if at the end, they’ll just leave them. I dont know what the hell their parents is thinking. It’s so funny. Some of the teenagers shared their story about the life before they came to the orphanage. Some of them were tortured by their grandparents. Although i was not the one who took responsible of teenagers, i could still feel the grief when my friends told us the story. I felt like crying. Now, I feel that i’m so lucky to be borned in such a good family. I have parents who love me so much and a good education to study. I can buy things that i want. i have a nice home, a comfortable bed to sleep on,clean water to drink and healthy foods to eat. Thanks God !!!!

The beginning of the end.

Finally,I start my first blog. First of all, I want to inform that this page may have some gramatical errors. But, I'll try my best. :)
Okay, I'll talk a little about my life. Actually, I enjoy my life lately. After my heart has been broken by someone, I started to make myself busy about SEALNet program (I'll tell you more later). Also, I am starting to forgive anyone whoever has hurt me, hanging out, having fun, and stopping to worry about things that are useless.
At the beginning of my holiday, I prepared myself for my university exam which is known as SNMPTN in Indonesia. It took a month time. I thought I have to make an effort so that I can enter a good university later. Yeah, I had done my best.
After spending a whole stressing month, I had my real holiday. One of my classmate offered me a holiday activity, SEALNet. At first, I didn't know what SEALNet is. Then, at 2nd june I attended my first workshop which was the second workshop of SEALNet Medan 2011. It gave me a great impression about that program. It taught me how to be a leader. It taught me to be have enough courage to speak in front of people you didn't know. But, the most amazing thing happened when we're in groups, having chit chat which is called mentor-mentee time. My mentor was from KL, and is now studying in Berkeley university, named Brian Wong. He is so warm hearted, kind, easy-going and quite good looking. He shared a lot about his life in US, experiences, and taught us to have fun. he-he-he. Okay, beside him, there are still a lot of mentors. All of them are so amazing. They're studying in great universities in US. I knew a different life from them. They are not nerd anyway. They always have fun.
And now they've left us. Some of them are having their internship, while some of them are having their vacation.
The program taught me how to love life, to dream big, to appreciate friendships and any opportunities. We went to orphanages to teach the children the importance of sanitation and hygine. Beside that, we had to give the children chance to dream big. I realized that the orphans are strong enough to face their life. We have a greater life than they do. The most memorable dialogue is : "I feel jealous of SEALNet members, although some of them are younger but their educations are much wider than mine. But still, I want to try my best, I want to have a better future for me, myself and for kids like me. I want to be a teacher." It touched me till I couldn't hold my tears. And then 2 of our mentors, Sinseanne and Senna, gave them a hug. Although it's a simple hug, but i knew that the hug contained love,motivation and hope to keep their dreams high. It's tiring, but we had a lot of fun.
I think I have great experiences with SEALNet. I wish i could be a SEALNet member forever.
With that kind of activity, I learned to open up and take everthing as easy as possible.
I'll continue some more in the next post. :)