Dear Jun,

thanks for granting my request that asked you to write about the problem that bothers your mind lately. As what you wished, I've edited and posted your two last entries. After reading them, I can say that your university's life seems so colorful. You do have a great life. I hope you can really savor every moment you have. Responding to your last entry, I want to state my thoughts.

You are having a crush on this senior, I think. The way you shared about things between you two, like joking, sharing, or he being so good to you.... I can feel like there's a love. It can be biased tough. You should promise to say to me when you are ready to confess that you're having a special feeling about him, kay? Now, about things between you and J. All I can say is this : To get one good thing, there's always another great thing you should sacrifice. I can't really help you since I have never walked in your shoes. But I know you're that kind of girl you always prioritize others' feeling than your own. You're not the egoistic girl. In case you are still not sure about the actual story between J and Wu, I guess you are not to either move forward or backward. You should stay neutral. Reason is, Wu has helped you a lot and you feel so comfortable whenever you shared thoughts with him. It's not fair for Wu that you suddenly make distances between you two. Another reason is that if it feels like there's tension between you and J, you should try to break the ice. If not, people will think negatively whether you guys are having like competition to have a guy. So, I can suggest you to act just normally.

Stay the same. Be you. Be the Imelda people loves.

With loves,

a friend of you.

do I have a choice?

Hello.. This post is a special request from Ms. Wu.. I will post something that have mingled in my mind lately.
Em.. Do you believe this quote? "You won't love campus life if you've ever felt the niceness of school life. You'll never get the fun like you have in school."
I do believe, know why?
However, not every 'why' can be answered clearly. I can just say the fact that in school,everyone seems to say the real things and you can easily differ a friend or a lover. Contrarily, in campus life everything is like bogus! It makes you confuse about whom or when to trust.

Check my case now.

Like what I told in my last entry, I do have a good senior (wu) to share with, he's been so good to me.
We text each other frequently and that makes me feel that we have a close friend relationship.
You guys now think that I am happy in this situation,right?
Fact is no, I wanna emphasize that I am actually not in my comfort zone. The problem is that one of my friend (let's call her K) love him so much and she always tells me whatever conversations she had with him. She looks extremely happy. While for wu, he's like so easy going with that.
I don't understand what he's exactly thinking about. At this time, I can accept the fact that junior-senior love story is just a usual case.
But again, things went even more complicated when I was sitting with some of my friends to chat about days and made jokes like who is having crush with who and who'll soon be in a relationship. The surprising thing is that suddenly one of my friends said like "She,J is going to be in a relationship soon with a senior." Afterward I found out the senior is Wu. Maybe it's just a joke to bother J. Nonetheless, few days afterwards, I read the same conversation at BBM's status between J and friends. I don't know whether I should believe it. When I ask wu, he answered: "Don't take it seriously, it's just a joke that her friends make and besides, she still can't forget her EX." Then I tried to forget it, but can I really act like it's nothing?
hmm.. or you think that I am jealous?
nope, maybe not yet? hahahaha.. who knows?
that why if it is all real, what should I do? since, we've been very good friends and we have shared uncountable jokes. He often jokes like "Oh, I am interested in you." or sth like that.
at first yah it's okay, but it is getting quite often now. and I afraid someday I will take it seriously. -_-"
I cant imagine what will happen that time. and I think he never take it serious though some of my near friends who know it said he does really have crush on me.
he ever said that I am being prioritized than others because he can freely talk anything at anytime with random topics, like hobbies,lecturers and foods. he said so when I complained the things happening between I,my friend,and J became more complicated and I have to set stay farther. Because I meet my friend and J everyday and it feels like I'm the third person between them.
Now, because all of these, our conversation is getting tenser than we used to have before. I can really feel this uneasiness in our friendship.
So,what is your conclusion? Should I move forward (act like nothing happens)? or move backward (make distances)?

Changes in short moments.

Halo!
It's been a long time since the last time I made a post in my blog. Miss it!
I have a super great life so far,although my life today is extremely different with my life months ago.
Few months ago, I had to go to school, went into a nice class consisting of 19 classmates,canteen with various kind of foods, bunches of assignments to do and most importantly,a best friend who always stand by my side anytime and anywhere. Honestly, I miss all those things so much. Everything seems to change in a blink of an eye. But, I realize I can't stop and stay in the past. I have to move forward.
I have to get used to wake up earlier than before. I have different schedules every week. I have new friends to share with, lots of skills to be learned,and knowledge to be loaded inside my tiny brain and many more.. All of these changes grow beyond my imagination about the life I will have after school.
Changes are parts of maturing our mind,right?
Okay, I will make 20 details about my life I currently:

1. I woke up at 5.45AM and prepare for lectures at 7AM, for that reason,I can never get enough sleep. And I will make myself busy all day including Sunday. I can't really enjoy weekends nowadays.
   
2. I wear a formal suit and shoes which looks so bad on me, I look much fatter than I used to
3. I go to campus mostly everyday with my beloved brother
4. I go to a great campus, with a huge class, messy laboratory with human corpses and chemical things. I can meet Malaysian friends and various races people.
5. I can be a nerd when reading medical science thingies that amuse me by their great collaborations to make us live
6. I act confidently when I do my exam, but then I can feel doubtful about what I've done, and seriously, I am quite afraid in failing my exam which will cause me to redo the same exam in the next term.
7. I have tutorial system, it's kind of debating and discussing material we are learning. And I love it, I think
8. Unluckily, I have to meet my ex mostly everyday. ZEETTT..
9. it's lucky to have lecturer who come on time, who can speak clearly, and who won't make you fall asleep.
10. I have 2 best friends in campus let's call them JA and VV
11. I have a friend who can kindly help me in everything, let's call him RWS
12. I have senior that is quite nice to me and seems to share everything, he is like my real brother
13. And accidentally, he have the same family name with my best friend I miss, let's call him Wu too. :p
    
14. I know lot's of senior who can help to deal with any material problems
15. I am so talkative and babbles everything that come to my mind.
16. I have experienced that love is a kind of ruler that lead you to disbelieve it in the end, it is so easy to be created, to be played and to finally break it.
17. I have to have afternoon nap
18. I am not sleeping in my own room at night
19. I eat lots everyday
20. And the last, I get pounds of weight. :'(

That's all the things I can describe now. I will tell you more next time and share some pics. my life doesnt stop here,there are a lots of fun things!
cheers! gotcha! ;)